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The mere thought of you confuses me at the moment, like pondering the purpose of the universe. You are too much for my mind to handle in one take therefor thinking about you scares me to great levels. When I'm with you it's almost like I am able to feel, able to feel sound and hear the stars rain down on me. But when I feel you it's different, it's like I have woken from a very long and foggy sleep to find there is happiness somewhere on earth around me.

The fakeness seems to disappear into the darkness of the music rooms we spend our spare waking hours in when I am with you. I am more aware of the fake people and lifestyles that are all around me but I start to understand them and understand how to stop them and stop myself. Unlike most people you do not make me feel pressured into this infectious fakeness. I can be who I am around you because I know you will accept me no matter what and I accept this as part of you.

Currently I do not know if we are or if I want to be anything more then content companions. We have a different relationship then usual people and i don't think many other people would understand but i think you would. It's almost like the exterior of our relationship is the physical one but the core of our bond is by far the most important. It seems by being physical with each other we are setting our standards very low and clouding our thoughts with chemical hormones when we try so hard to clear the sky that is our minds.

My conclusion is that there shouldn't be a conclusion to our lives and that we should live it the way it plays out. We are the actors in our own play and the only individuals in the audience that matter are us.