Beginning, start where did you go? Did you leave with him? Do you know how to get back? Leave a bread crumb trail. Reach out and grab my hand, only if you want to though. Leave if you want. Remember me if you want, and only if.
Are you too far in now? Can you breathe? I CAN’T SEE YOU! You are falling away. Be happy. Please stay well. Don’t give in to THAT. PLEASE! I hope you aren’t drowning again. Or is that what you want? To FLY? Jump? Not feel anything. Is it me? You? Them? You are falling I think. Don’t make me fall too.I don’t want to go with you there. NOT AGAIN! I know what it’s like, I don’t like it. Maybe you do. I don’t know. Do I know anything? What’s wrong? What’s wrong with me? That is the ego ME, I Damn ego. I can’t tell you apart. Something is angry. Too angry! Something is sad. something is worried, something wants to be happy. I don’t want to drink. NEVER AGAIN. I WANT TO PROMISE YOU THAT. I WILL NEVER DRINK AGAIN! I don’t want that feeling ever. I don’t want anyone to have that feeling. Am I well?
Calming. <3
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